Sad Truth of Pop Singer’s George Michael’s Lonely Last Years
If you are over the age of 35 or 40, you should already know who George Michael is. If not: he was a very famous pop star who had a string of pop hits in the 1980s, some under the name of the musical duo he was in, “Wham!”
More proof that achieving world wide fame and wealth is not a guarantee of being happy, at peace, or being fulfilled:
(October 2017 update farther below!):
Sad Truth of George Michael’s Lonely Last Years by Sarah Rainey, May 2017
Sad truth of George’s lonely last years – by man who knew him best: Hours of daytime TV. Binges on ready meals and Coco Pops. Shuffling around in pyjamas. In a candid interview, the star’s ex-lover reveals the stark reality behind the gilded facade
Four months after singer George Michael was found dead in his bed, the shrine outside his North London home continues to grow.
Ribbons and balloons are strung in the trees in the park opposite the £8 million mansion in Highgate, which George, 53, shared with his hair stylist partner Fadi Fawaz, 43, before his sudden death from a heart condition on Christmas Day.
…But to those who knew him well, there is an uncomfortable contrast between the fans’ depiction of George’s starry existence — and the rather mundane life he was really leading in the years and months before his untimely death.
The truth is that the singer had long since left those days behind, and beneath the glamorous facade was a sad, lonely man who felt he had little left to live for.
Behind the tired-looking blinds on the windows of his red-brick home, George used to spend his days hiding from the world, sitting in flannel pyjamas as he binged on daytime television, takeaways and cheap ready meals.
He was so crippled by shyness that he refused to sing in front of friends or family, preferring to potter round the garden instead. It was a world away from his flamboyant on-stage persona.
At night, George would sleep alone, passing the time by phoning chat shows to correct news stories about himself. He desperately craved someone to talk to.
In an extraordinary interview, his long-term partner Kenny Goss, from whom he separated in 2009, has revealed that George’s larger-than-life public persona was a ‘stranger’ to them both.
‘He didn’t like being that person,’ Kenny admits. ‘He liked being at home, behind closed doors. He did not like being “George Michael”.’
George, who was born to a Greek Cypriot father and an English mother and spent much of his early career trying to conceal his homosexuality, went through periods of extreme depression, even at the height of his fame, during which he would completely disappear from public view.
[According to George Michael’s ex, Kenny]:
But Kenny reveals George was plagued by deep-seated insecurity, so much so that he refused to let him see him perform — even at home. ‘The only time he wrote and worked on music was in the bath,’ he says. ‘He would soak for hours, at any time of day. He liked to be alone there. Writing was his passion but he never sang in the house or the car. He would be too embarrassed.
…At night, the pair slept in separate bedrooms. Kenny says they each needed their own space, while George spent lonely nights wide awake, channel-hopping.
..He was also gripped by constant anxiety about losing his loved ones. He refused to go on holiday and, after the terrorist attacks of 9/11, declared he wanted only to fly by private jet.
Despite wanting children, Kenny knew George wouldn’t have been able to cope with a family. ‘It would have driven him crazy, the anxiety. My God, he was such a worrier.’
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Update, October 2017:
George Michael dismisses his entire life as “a waste of time” and admits he never recovered from the death of his first love in heartbreaking scenes from his new documentary.
The tragic star, who produced the show himself, was putting the final touches to “Freedom” just 48 hoursbefore his shock death last Christmas.
And in what would become his final message to fans, he reveals how he was still struggling to get over losing boyfriend Anselmo Feleppa, who died from AIDS more than two decades earlier.
In moving footage, George admits: “He still, 23 years later, brings a tear to my eye. He was my savior.”
…But having piled on the pounds in the months before his death, he employs an actor to pose as him writing the documentary’s script at a table — while the superstar narrates throughout from behind the camera, mainly as the words are typed.
He describes how he found happiness fronting pop band Wham! then explains: “This is the story of just how fame and tragedy intervened.”
And its poignant closing scenes feature never-before-seen archive footage of Michael in which he writes his own epitaph.
Asked how he would like to be remembered, he says: “I hope people think of me as someone who had some kind of integrity. I hope I’m remembered for that — very unlikely. I think it’s all been a waste of time, a waste of effort.”
…But his tragic love life features heavily, despite no mention of his long-term lover, Texan art dealer Kenny Goss, or last on/off boyfriend Fadi Fawaz.
Instead, he tells of his perpetual agony over Feleppa’s death and gives a heartbreaking glimpse into his struggle to find happiness despite global fame, success and fortune.
He met Brazilian designer Feleppa in 1991 while performing at Brazil’s Rock in Rio festival.
Michael recalls: “Anselmo was the first time I think I really loved someone selflessly. It was kind of knee-jerk. I felt immediately that everything had changed.”
…It [Michael’s “Older” album] sold 8 million copies, but any joy was short-lived. He says: “I had about a six-month period where things were OK. Then I found out my mother had cancer.”
Lesley passed away, aged 60, in 1997. A “spiritually crushed” Michael spiraled into a deep depression and struggled to make new music.
His misery was a far cry from his early success in Wham!, where colorful outfits and lively tunes such as “I’m Your Man” helped him and schoolmate Andrew Ridgeley shift 28 million records.
Michael recalls: “Wham! was an absolute joy. My god what a wonderful joyride for two 18-year-olds.”
A year after the band’s 1986 split, Michael released solo album “Faith.” It sold more than 20 million copies and made him a global megastar.
Michael says: “I went with full gusto into creating a new character, one I thought would be resonant enough to stand up there next to Madonna and Michael Jackson and Prince. I was looking for happiness but this was the wrong road.”
He told his record label, Sony, he wanted to withdraw from promotion because his fame had taken him “to the edge of madness.”
So the 1990 album, “Listen Without Prejudice,” was released without an image of the singer or even his name on the cover.
Sir Elton John says in the film: “The fact he didn’t do any promotion is quite astonishing.”
…But it [the Freedom video] also included incendiary images which, along with the song’s lyrics, reflected how he hated fame.
.Michael explains: “The burning jacket, the exploding guitar the exploding jukebox, its me just saying, ‘I’m sick of this.’”
But the late star glosses over several of his well-documented struggles including arrests for public indecency and drug troubles.
George Michael singing “Father Figure” (link You Tube)
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